Christmas is coming.

Firstly, I'd like to thank vuu's mother for giving me the first christmas present! ♥ She's too nice & generous D: The wallet is gorgeous! I still feel bad though.. Because we've only met twice and she bought me something. I wanted to give it back but vuu said that that's even more rude! D:
Thank you very much!


Harold & Kumar is such a funny movie ♥! Got to love it. Just for laughter :)
Its about these two guys getting mistaken as terrorists, get sent to jail in Cuba and then escape their way to some place to clear their names.
Got to love the korean guy!
& throughout the movie - there is like weed everywhere!



Backstreet Boys - Best that i can

"some say that love isn't fair
but they don't know you and me
and when they tell me that love doesn't last alone
that's when i look at you"


P.S. Need to go Christmas shopping!

My oh My

I love love love you you you you ♥.
I miss you you you you you ♥.
10 more days days days ♥.


When the hell are you going to come back!
You called me for a few minutes and we get disconnected :\
NICE! D:
Can't wait to see the new you :D Ahahas
Your missing out so much this week.
The graduation, and the party - SUCKERS! :)
Hope your having a nice fun and safe trip over there :D
TALK TO YOU SOON MY♥.


The other day i watched Zombieland with my btfl and it was freakin' funny! :L I guess it was because they were zombies that i didnt receive any nightmares :) Awesome. Telling me to 'man up' - HMPH. I guess it helped me (abit).
Do you know how great it is to share your thoughts to someone who you have so much in common with? 'Omg! Love her new song! Shares*' Ahahs.




North - Picture of you

Coz I've got a picture of you in my heart
And a vision of you in my arms
And I just can't deny what's going
On in m soul and I
I can't let u walk away
Till you hear what I got to say
I love u more, more
More than the air I breathe

The end of the year 2009

The year is almost over and throughout the year, i've been pretty happy with it. Putting aside the bad. Who'd want to remember them anyways?

This year~~

I'm thankful for me and him. Staying together. Although its only the start, and we've been through many problems. We manage to solve them together and get better at it. I may not be perfect, may not please you at times, may not see you all the time, but you still want to be stuck with a person like me. I love listening to Lil Eddie's song - Statue. Some lines also makes me wonder how i could be with such a great guy.

"What is the reason, when you really could have any man you want, I don't see, what i have to offer."
"So amazed how you take me back, Each and every time our love collapsed."
"Ask myself why are you even with me, After all the shit i put you through"

I can't help but smile every time i'm thinking about what had happened in the past~ the little silly moments, your laughs, your smile - It's all there, inside my head. Hahas, i'm loving my life. I'm affected by you. I'm also feeling more confident in saying things directly to you. Before, i'd be really.. nervous to say certain things. But now? Haha. We're like :). The little things you do, could make me burst into laughter. Silly? Ha- I can't control it.
Friends, and even friends parents all ask the same question; 'how do you cope?' Ahahs. Its not hard if the two are really committed to the relationship. & although some may think that i am maybe.. i guess you could say, 'young' to be thinking about a serious relationship. Why would you want to date someone who you only think of as.. 'a temporary?'. But it's also not bad, as this would be called 'searching for the one'. My advice to you is; if you love them, go for it. If you don't, don't. (I apologize for my poor language, as i cannot find the proper words for it.) As i was saying, this is reality; i wont be able to have another go with him if i do anything stupid. & i'll definitely regret it after. Life would be meaningless.. Lols~ strong words, but they're not just words to me, as i am speaking the truth. I cannot go on without you, your what i need in my life.
There's too much to say :)
But with the simplest words ~I love you~ will not explain all my feelings towards you.
♥18128 - The day when my life changed.
Haha, now that i think about it~ yes i have changed alot after that day. Now i've been more committed to my studies. Wanting to achieve my dreams. I may sound 'ohh, what a stupid thing to say', but its just that i don't want to disappoint him. I want a good future.

I don't need loads of cash in my pocket, don't need my husband to have a high pay job or anything fancy like that.

Living an average life is already perfect to me. - That's still a long way for me though :) No need to worry about that now~
Damn i miss you so baddddddd.
14 more beautiful days♥


♥4129
We are best friends for life 8)

Byebye my My! I hope you have a nice trip overseas! Come back in one piece♥ So need to catch up when you come back 8)

Oh and yesterday i finished watching 'Stew of Life' and i loved it! Although i didn't watch the whole series, i loved the last few episodes. How the young couple broke through their differences and worked it out. How the old couple were so cute and young to each other. It's like their love would never age. And how the middle aged couple managed to get back together after one had made a huge mistake. To be able to get something back after you've let go of it. These series shows the way of life. We go through many problems, many life crisis, and such but we still manage to have good memories. Such a sweet drama.

"I just want to be able to come home everyday, open the door, and see my loving family cook dinner together."

Makes me want to see the same sweet scene.

Formals.

"Formal shopping!" , "Getting ready for formal!" , "Gone to formal!", ".......Formal!".
That is all i hear and see. Makes me envy them :(
Many years of schooling, and we get nothing :L Apparently we aren't 'trusted' because of what happened in the previous years.
Oh wells.
We'll be having a party anyways :D
So hooray for that.
~

Johnta Austin - Call You Tonight

The stars must be your light, tonight
I believe this has to have a meaning
Lightning had to strike, tonight
'Cause the two of us are finally meeting
In this place, at this time
And I feel safe when I look in your eyes
I feel like I know you from another life
And it makes me wish I wasn't so pressed by time

I can't catch my breath cause you take it away
The best writer in town could not find words to say
How there's so many things I wanna get to know
I wish that I could stay but I gotta go so I'mma call you tonight
I will baby, just as soon as I get time alone
I'mma call you tonight, I will baby
Just as soon as I get home


I miss my boyfriend. I love my boyfriend. & I need my boyfriend.
SO BLOODY MUCH! Grrr :[
16 days till our 1st anniversary ♥ :)

When they say 'its never too late', it is.

At times, i hate going on. Seeing things, finding things that just leaves me ________. So i'm going to take a break from this computer until i feel like i am needed. But would probably fail the next day :L ...
Being selfish is part of our nature. We would want things that we can't have, we'd wish things to come true, or we'd want to have someone all to yourself..
"For Christmas, I'd give up all my presents just to have you with me."

I HOPE YOU REALIZE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.
But i guess you won't :) .

Sigh. Why won't you understand that your not a burden to me. Even if you didn't tell me, i'd still worry about you. Becoming 'strangers' is what i don't want. Because it won't seem right for you to just disappear out of my life. I'd like to thank you for being the friend that anyone would love most. - For being there, even when i don't expect anyone to come. I can take your ways of treating me, just don't do anything stupid.

People don't tend to realize how special that person is, until it is lost.

For now, goodbye blogger. I've had enough of expressing for now.
Your so negative towards me.

Problems just keep wanting to get through me.

Phew ~ Today was tiring. 'Your always tired' - I guess his right, i need more sleep.. Having trouble to do so though. Continuing on.. Today i was bothered enough to walk a marathon around my suburb. Which is pretty much my workout for the day/week - ha. Walked to pick up Jason, walked back, walked to park, walked to My's place, walked back to my place, walked to shops and back to my place again, and then walked My home, walked Jason back to tway and walked home again. SIGH. Again, bothered to type all that. Pretty good i guess. Thanks Jason for the shouts. (Y)

Lalala - HA HA - Your so funny. Now, i just had to let that out. For me to know and you to don't give :L Nyeh.


Mayday Parade - If You Can't Live Without Me, Why Aren't You Dead Yet?

Baby, I told myself that I'll be fine but it's a lie
I don't want to talk about it
Memories, oh they cut like knives
Deep inside I'm falling
Baby, catch me if you can

What's holding me back is the thought of time we never had
My world's hanging by three words that I can't bear to say

When you hear this chorus
Do you miss the way the world was spinning for us?
Do you hurt the way that I do?
After all this time you leave me broken
This song is every word I left unspoken
When you hear this, girl, I'm hoping that you think of us


Title says it all, 'If You Can't Live Without Me, Why Aren't You Dead Yet?'
Just words?

Things don't seem to matter anymore. Your going your way, and i'm .. not sure where this is heading :D .....
I'm not the person who can put a smile onto your face. Not the person who can give the love that you want. Just overall, not the person for you.
I hate to say.

Hurt.

Maybe its best for me to just be isolated from all this.
Cos' things just seem to get worse after i appear..

My eye is practically swollen, and its like hard to blink, smile or anything that would affect it. Feels bad too. Bleh, i need a check up.
I dislike this feeling D:

Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid~!
I dislike this this this this this!


Claude Kelly - Quiet Storm

but inside it hits like thunder
inside the tears run just like a flood
i'm gonna smile like nothing's wrong
but it feels like a quiet storm
(whoa whoa whoa whoa)
and it hurts more than you'll ever know
(whoa whoa whoa whoa)
cos it feels like a quiet storm